Kent/Feldspar

[videointhenoise]

"Just once more," they had said when Ellie's team petitioned for it. She was busy with Palmer, falling in love with science while he fell in love with God, and Kent was left to pick up the pieces. He wanted another damn go at it. The Machine had a pricetag in the billions; it was begging to be used again.

But they wouldn't let Ellie go. They wouldn't let just anyone go. They wanted someone who knew how it worked, who had been there from the beginning, but someone who isn't completely taken in by Ellie's words.

That leads them to a dozen people and they end up with Kent. He's blind, but that's not what decides it. They claim that he wouldn't hallucinate the way Ellie did. That he has a unique perspective.

And, he's already proven himself steady and loyal.

He experiences it all the way that Ellie does, but something goes wrong on the other end. Maybe another terrorist attack. Maybe not. All he knows is that he's in the sphere and then, suddenly, he's floating, unable to find his footing until a great crash and he slams into the bottom of the machine.

He groans, pulling his helmet on with a grunt and a wince.

"Fuck this," he mutters, finding the edge of the sphere with his hands. There was a door there somewhere. He just - has to find it.

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[videointhenoise]

"I used to give tours to kids," he says with a laugh. "I thought I was pretty good with it." He smiles to himself.

"I'm glad they like me, Feldspar. I don't know what I would do otherwise."

He'd be stranded with people who were hostile. With people who hated him. With people who were afraid.

[getfeldsparred]

"In that case it's a good thing you found us, huh?" They give him a little nudge with their elbow. "Maybe that's how it's supposed to be. Maybe it's just luck. But I'm glad I found you, y'know? I'm glad I was there for it. Seems too well-timed to be anything but fated, but can't say I really even believe in fate."

[videointhenoise]

"I don't believe in fate," he says with a sigh and then reaches over for the stick, his hand over Feldspar's for a moment. "I believe in science. But the math doesn't check out here."

[getfeldsparred]

“I don’t know what to believe in,” Feldspar admits, staring down at Kent’s 4 fingers over his. “Maybe if I sleep on it it’ll feel less like a dream.”

They sigh. “How’s the marshmallow?”

[videointhenoise]

"Maybe. I'm still not sure how I can sleep."

He pulls the marshmallow off the stick and tries it.

"It's - god...Feldspar, it's like home."

[getfeldsparred]

It’s like home. Feldspar smiles; at least there’s this for him, a marshmallow and a taste of home.

“We’ll just keep you up until you’re too tired to think! We haven’t even gotten to the sap wine yet.”

[videointhenoise]

"The sap wine?" he laughs. "I don't know if that's a good idea. Do you do this every night?"

Kent doesn't drink much, especially here, when he had crash landed only hours before. But he's so curious.

[getfeldsparred]

“No, no, stars no,” Feldspar laughs. “Sap wine’s usually for special occasions. There’s a new hatchling or someone comes of age, usually some kind of celebration.”

[videointhenoise]

"Oh good," he laughs. "Because even if I don't sleep, I think I might be ready to just - sit in the quiet for a while. Would it be rude to slip away?"

[getfeldsparred]

Feldspar shakes their head. “Nah, not at all. Come on, I’ll take you back to the cabin.”

[videointhenoise]

Kent sighs in relief and pushes himself up. "Here. I'll show you how to guide me."

He reaches a hand out. "Give me your arm. A little above your elbow."

He's mapped them out enough to at least know that they have elbows!

[getfeldsparred]

They do indeed have elbows, and Feldspar has very nice elbows indeed. They stick out their arm and listen for further instructions.

“So you’ll hold me right there?”

[videointhenoise]

He slides up close to them. "Yeah. About a half step behind. You can tell me what obstacles are ahead or what's going on. My friend - Ellie, the one who went first? She was a great gossip."

[getfeldsparred]

“There’s a tree to your right that sticks out in the path, so I’m going to swerve,” they warn, hoping that it’s what Kent has in mind.

Feldspar knows that Kent has friends and a community back on his own planet; he’s mentioned Ellie before, but he’s friendly and knowledgeable and doesn’t seem like much of a recluse. It’s hard to think about though, how he might never see any of them ever again. Really sad and tragic, in a way.

“Gossan, my friend who founded Outer Wilds Ventures with me and Slate and Hornfels? Has an awful crush on Porphy, our wine-maker. Porphy’s younger than us all, and one day sprouted up to be about your height, all strong and strapping and charming. Gossan doesn’t know what to do with themselves around them.”

[videointhenoise]

Kent laughs a bit to himself. He doesn't feel sad yet, can't let himself feel that yet, but he knows it's coming. Soon.

Instead, he keeps his smile. "Oh, does Porphy know about that?"

[getfeldsparred]

“Oh, yeah,” they laugh, “Porphy knows. It’s pretty funny actually. They’ll deliberately flirt with Gossan just to see them squirm.”

[videointhenoise]

"Oh no," he laments playfully. "Poor Gossan."

But that does set him on another line of questioning. "Do your people have monogamous relationships?"

[getfeldsparred]

Feldspar nods. “Yeah, sure. We date and fall in love and all that. Sometimes we get together without the love part…I mean, everyone gets urges, I guess?”

Feldspar less so, as they always have their eyes on the skies and little else, but they’re aware when someone’s trying to flirt with them.

[videointhenoise]

"Sounds like home," he agrees. "We have marriage, a bonding ceremony that sort of differs by culture, but generally, that's how it goes."

[getfeldsparred]

A bonding ceremony. Feldspar can’t say they don’t celebrate when two of them commit to each other, but it isn’t some big to-do. A new hatchling or a hatchling becoming an adult usually creates more of a big deal than anything between two Hearthians, but a bigger celebration doesn’t sound terrible.

“That sounds nice,” they say quietly. “Did you ever try to find someone? Ellie?”

[videointhenoise]

Kent smiles, shaking his head. "No. Ellie and I were just friends. And I have preferences that Ellie doesn't meet. Plus, she fell in love with a preachy asshole. Do you have religion?"

[getfeldsparred]

“Considering I don’t know what that is, I’m guessing not. But we do have preachy assholes, so I understand that part!”

Loooots of preachy assholes abound.

[videointhenoise]

"Religion is - just a way of explaining things that don't make sense immediately. Usually it involves some sort of higher power, an omnipotent god or gods or goddesses." He shrugs. "But - Palmer is one of those. A preachy asshole. But it's who she loves and I'm not interested in interfering with that."

He pauses a little as he stumbles on a rock. "But uh - no. I don't have anyone like that at home. Never really was interested in it."

[getfeldsparred]

Whoops - probably should have looked out for that rock. Still new at all of this, but he makes a concerned effort to focus on the path and keeping Kent safe.

"There's no accounting for good taste," Feldspar says with a sage nod. "Religion sounds like what the old Hearthians believed in, once upon a time."

[videointhenoise]

It's dark and it was a small rock. Kent is most definitely not paying attention to where his feet go. "I think every civilization has to go through that phase," he explains. "Some grow out of it. Some don't."