Kent/Feldspar

[videointhenoise]

"Just once more," they had said when Ellie's team petitioned for it. She was busy with Palmer, falling in love with science while he fell in love with God, and Kent was left to pick up the pieces. He wanted another damn go at it. The Machine had a pricetag in the billions; it was begging to be used again.

But they wouldn't let Ellie go. They wouldn't let just anyone go. They wanted someone who knew how it worked, who had been there from the beginning, but someone who isn't completely taken in by Ellie's words.

That leads them to a dozen people and they end up with Kent. He's blind, but that's not what decides it. They claim that he wouldn't hallucinate the way Ellie did. That he has a unique perspective.

And, he's already proven himself steady and loyal.

He experiences it all the way that Ellie does, but something goes wrong on the other end. Maybe another terrorist attack. Maybe not. All he knows is that he's in the sphere and then, suddenly, he's floating, unable to find his footing until a great crash and he slams into the bottom of the machine.

He groans, pulling his helmet on with a grunt and a wince.

"Fuck this," he mutters, finding the edge of the sphere with his hands. There was a door there somewhere. He just - has to find it.

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[getfeldsparred]

They sit down next to Kent on the bed, kissing Lapis on their little head and rock-bouncing them back to sleep.

“Yeah? You can have some after you nap a bit. When was the last time you slept?”

[videointhenoise]

He breathes out, letting the world spin under him.

"I've gotten a few hours here and there."

[getfeldsparred]

Once Kent’s on his back Feldspar lays little Lapis down on his chest, pausing to smooth Kent’s hair from his face.

“I’m here now, you can rest properly. If Lapis wakes I’ll take care of them.”

[videointhenoise]

"Okay."

He breathes in, on arm around Lapis to hold them close, and it takes two seconds before he's snoring.

He sleeps for hours and hours, only waking when his stomach protests.

[getfeldsparred]

This is where Feldspar shines. Lapis wakes and they happily juggle the little Hearthian while they do some chores around the house, putting them right back down on their emotional-support Kent when it was time for another nap. When Kent finally rises they’ve got Lapis in their shirt and they’re chatting away with them, telling them all about space and Outer Wilds and how they met this strange alien on Brittle Hollow and it changed their life forever.

To Feldspar’s credit, it does sort’ve look like Lapis is listening to their stories.

[videointhenoise]

Kent can't tell that they're listening, but he can tell that Lapis is quiet and not sleeping. He rolls over and just - enjoys the moment for what it is. Feldspar is a natural at this, which Kent doesn't actually find surprising at all. They had told him about it, but now he can actually witness it.

"You left out how handsome the alien was," Kent says, groggy as he sits up.

[getfeldsparred]

Feldspar grins as Kent slowly gets up. “They’ve got four eyes, they can see that for themselves. Isn’t that right, Lapis? The handsome alien came here just for you and me. Aren’t we lucky, huh?”

Lapis continues to stare, and Feldspar boops their little nose, causing them to snort slightly.

[videointhenoise]

Kent stands up and stretches. "I did. Mostly for Lapis, though. You're good for stew, though."

He puts a hand on Feldspar's shoulder as he walks by and squeezes it.

[getfeldsparred]

“Just for stew, Lapis, you heard him,” Feldspar chuckles, leaning their head against Kent’s arm.

“There’s food on the stove for you.@

[videointhenoise]

"Thank you." He presses a kiss to the top of Feldspar's head.

"Did Gneiss or Gossan come in here to take them?" he wonders, finding his way to the counter and the stove.

[getfeldsparred]

“They tried to, but I wouldn’t let them. I’m still bonding with the little pebble. They can always have their time later, when I’m back up in space.”

[videointhenoise]

"I haven't let them take them," Kent says with a little sheepish chuckle. "I know that it's - the way that things are here, but I think the human in me is rebelling."

[getfeldsparred]

“You can’t fight who you are,” Feldspar shrugs. “You wouldn’t be you. I think they’re just so used to offering the help, they’re worried about you doing it on your own.

“But you really love this little hatchling, huh?”

[videointhenoise]

"Yeah, I do."

He leans on the counter, eating the stew, but ventures carefully into this. "Gneiss told me about - what happened. The last time a hatchling was born small."

[getfeldsparred]

Feldspar stiffens at the mention of the last time a hatchling had been born this small. They look into Kent’s face searchingly, holding Lapis all the more tightly.

“Yeah? About how it ended for them? It was a sad time.”

[videointhenoise]

"It was. I was determined to not let it happen again. I told - I told Riebeck this, but I was born small, too. And I almost didn't make it. It was only because of science that I made it."

[getfeldsparred]

“You?”

That’s a little funny. Kent is so…huge as an adult.

Feldspar absently brings Lapis up to their face, tucking their little head under their chin.

“We named the little one that didn’t make it. Breccia.”

[videointhenoise]

"Me. It's why I'm blind," he says softly. "And I like that name. Breccia," he repeats fondly.

[getfeldsparred]

It’s why he’s blind. He was so small that they had to save him, but he lost his sight. Feldspar feels their throat become thick at the thought, and rubs their face gentle against Lapis’ head.

“What did they do to save you? Do we need to…for Lapis?”

[videointhenoise]

"No. Lapis will be fine, I think. I just - wasn't finished growing. I wasn't supposed to be small; I- hatched too early. Lapis is string and small and fully formed, or so Gneiss told me."

He sets the bowl down and walks over, sliding his hand along the little one's back.

[getfeldsparred]

They lift Lapis up to place into Kent's waiting hands. "I'll trust Gneiss then," they say quietly. "For someone who hatched too early, I can't believe how big you grew. Maybe Lapis will grow big, like Slate or Porphy."

[videointhenoise]

"Maybe," he laughs, pulling them close and pressing a kiss to their head. "But they're not going to grow at all if we keep them up. Time for bed," he coos softly, taking them into another room and placing them in the little crib. "And it's time for you to sleep in your own bed. Daddy and Feldspar get to have the bed together now."

[getfeldsparred]

Feldspar grins to themselves as Kent wanders away with little Lapis in his arms. They follow so they can watch him put Lapis down for the evening in the rough-hewn crib, spying their little hands as they reach for Kent as they set back down. "Oh, they're asking for you. They're really attached to you, Kent. What did you call yourself again?"

[videointhenoise]

"Uh - shit, you heard that?" he asks, sticking a hand in the crib to let them wrap their little fingers around his.

"It's Daddy. Dad. Uh - the male part of the two-parent unit."

[getfeldsparred]

Lapis holds tightly onto Kent's hand, but thankfully start to close all four eyes once they've got a good grip.

"Dad. Cute."

A little nickname for the role. They like it; it suits Kent and their new nurturing role.

"Here, let's rock the crib a bit, they'll fall asleep soon."