Luca/CK

[knowmyplace]

[Continued from here.]

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[countthecats]

CK doesn't dawdle, but he doesn't rush, either. He's clean and dry in a silk robe when he joins Luca, shooing a cat out of the way so he can curl up next to him instead.

"What do you see in me, Luca? You could have anyone. Someone who isn't a mess. Someone successful, happy."

[knowmyplace]

He pushes his laptop out if the way so he can wrap his arms possessively around CK.

"I want you," he tells him. "You are clever and witty and fucking hot, and you get me. No one else knows what we've been through together. I feel myself with you."

[countthecats]

"I don't feel like most of those most of the time anymore," he confesses, twining his fingers with Luca. "I don't think I'm ever going to be who I used to be. Is that okay?"

[knowmyplace]

Luca presses a kiss to his lips, but he wants to shake him. This isn't what he wanted when he pulled CK into this goddamn bed. This sort of relationship talk is tedious and dull. It makes his head hurt. He wants him to shut up and be thankful that Luca spent so much time on him. Show some gratitude.

He simply smiles a warm smile and brushes his fingers through CK's hair.

"Neither will I. We can learn about each other together, okay?'

[countthecats]

He does and says all the right things, but CK still feels something off there. A sense that Luca doesn't want to talk about this. Or maybe he's being unfair, and is only seeing what he expects, as someone who's struggling to love himself.

So he smiles, nods, and turns his attention to the screen. "What kinds of options do you have on this thing?"

[knowmyplace]

The tension eases almost immediately as Luca gives him a gentle squeeze. CK might not think that he can be that person again, but Luca is prepared to test that theory. He brings his laptop closer and shows him the movie choices. Most of them are several years old, the same ones they saw in theaters.

Except this time, they both can enjoy them equally. He wants to remind him of those moments, when Luca was the cool brother in law. The one who could do anything. Get him anything he wanted.

Despite his earlier frustrations, he does want to spoil him.

[countthecats]

"Hah! I remember that one." CK points out an action flick that had made waves at the time for exceptionally gratuitous violence and sex scenes that pushed the limits of the rating system. "I had to spend half the run time hoping you wouldn't notice I had a hard-on." Or, well, maybe part of him had hoped Luca did, but it'd always just been a harmless fantasy back then. A perfectly normal crush on a handsome older man giving him attention.

[knowmyplace]

Luca chuckles, warm and deep. "Oh? Which part was it that got you hard? Was it the fucking on the roof? Or - the scene where he ties the other guy up and leaves his cock out?" He reaches out and starts the movie for them.

Luca had been hard, too. But not at those scenes. He liked the violence. The way hands wrapped around throats.

[countthecats]

"Both?" He'd been, what, sixteen? It hadn't exactly taken much to get his motor going then. Not that he's all that better now, unless the depression's really getting to him. "And... that torture scene. I- I'd never seen anything like it. Had it replaying in my head for months." It'd been meant to be borderline erotic, with the main villain getting off to it. But it'd definitely awakened something in him.

[knowmyplace]

"Yeah?" And Luca can already feel his body heat up. He might not be ready to do anything about it yet, but it's there. Alive and awake.

"What did you remember? Is that the one where he bent him over and laid welts on his ass?"

[countthecats]

"Yeah. He's got him in that mask and handcuffs so he's blind and helpless. And he-" CK licks his lips, snuggling in closer. "-brands him, right above his cock. Forces his tongue down his throat. Fuck." He shivers. "It's the first time I ever imagined someone doing things like that to me."

[knowmyplace]

Luca watches the opening credits over his shoulder, then slides his hand around his waist. "Did you try it?" He wonders, lowering his voice. "Getting tied up. Whipped? Used? Because I'd very much like to do those things to you."

[countthecats]

"On both sides. I used to be pretty active in the local kink scene, you know." Just not for a while. Not since Emilia. "It's fun to be the one giving it out, but there's something... special about being on the other end. Especially with the right partner." Though he always felt like there was something holding him back from really giving up control, being completely owned by whatever play partner he had, even the ones who were very, very good.

[knowmyplace]

"I know you were," he says, sliding his hand under the robe to gently touch skin against his fingertips. "You have to have a lot of trust to be able to give up control like that," he agrees. "But if you can, then it's - beyond amazing."

[countthecats]

"Oh?" He shivers, his eyes glued on the screen as the opening scene starts to play. "You've tried it yourself?" That's hard to imagine. Luca's so powerful, so in control. He should be the one holding the leash and crop, if anything.

[knowmyplace]

"Once. Long, long time ago. I decided I wanted to know what it felt like. Realized it wasn't for me, but - that didn't mean I wasn't changed a little from it."

He slides his hand along the inside of his thigh. "But I'm sure you can guess what I prefer to do."

[countthecats]

CK spreads his legs with a little sigh, nuzzling against Luca's shoulder. "...we're not going to see much of this movie, are we." Not that he sounds disappointed. "Luca? I trust you."

Maybe more than he trusts himself.

[knowmyplace]

"I know," he says, kissing his neck. "Do you know why I didn't hurt you like you asked me to yesterday?" he asks, taking his cock in hand and squeezing it once before moving back up to his stomach.

[countthecats]

Was that only yesterday? It feels like a lifetime. He gasps and clings to Luca's arm, stiffening in his brief grip. Beautifully responsive, even after all the torment he's put himself through today.

"Why not?"

[knowmyplace]

"Because I want to hurt you to make you feel good," he laughs, deep and low, his chest rumbling. "Because I want to hurt you and have you know that I'm doing it because I love you and because you actually want it. Not because you think I do."

[countthecats]

CK reaches out, running a hand down his chest as he laughs. Perfection. "Okay, but... I want to make you feel good too, Luca. And the idea of letting you... use me, that's exciting too." Even if it's not always pleasurable for him. Maybe even more, then. There's a part of him now that needs to be hurt in a way he didn't back in the kink scene. And he trusts Luca not to take it too far.

[knowmyplace]

No other words have affected him quite like this. "Yeah," he agrees and then takes his chin to kiss him. "Yeah, I want that, too."

He closes the laptop and shoves it off of the bed so he can slide atop CK, straddling him at the waist.

[countthecats]

He wasn't entirely expecting that. His breath hitches as Luca breaks the kiss to climb on top of him, his robe falling open to reveal his naked body underneath. He looks up, admiring and apprehensive. "What are you going to do to me?" There's an almost giddiness about him.

[knowmyplace]

He considers it, sliding his hands along his arms and up to try and pin him down by the wrist to the bed. "That depends on what you have in here." He hears that interest in his voice, the way that his body moves, and he leans down to kiss him. "Or should I just tie you up here and go exploring on my own?"

[countthecats]

CK doesn't resist. He squirms a little, but not in any way that suggests he's actually trying to break free. "Most of my toys are in the studio," he murmurs against Luca's lips. A room that used to be an office, and is now something like a mini dungeon. Keeping a film setup in his bedroom was just too much, after all. And this way he could keep the cats out.