Kent/Feldspar

[videointhenoise]

"Just once more," they had said when Ellie's team petitioned for it. She was busy with Palmer, falling in love with science while he fell in love with God, and Kent was left to pick up the pieces. He wanted another damn go at it. The Machine had a pricetag in the billions; it was begging to be used again.

But they wouldn't let Ellie go. They wouldn't let just anyone go. They wanted someone who knew how it worked, who had been there from the beginning, but someone who isn't completely taken in by Ellie's words.

That leads them to a dozen people and they end up with Kent. He's blind, but that's not what decides it. They claim that he wouldn't hallucinate the way Ellie did. That he has a unique perspective.

And, he's already proven himself steady and loyal.

He experiences it all the way that Ellie does, but something goes wrong on the other end. Maybe another terrorist attack. Maybe not. All he knows is that he's in the sphere and then, suddenly, he's floating, unable to find his footing until a great crash and he slams into the bottom of the machine.

He groans, pulling his helmet on with a grunt and a wince.

"Fuck this," he mutters, finding the edge of the sphere with his hands. There was a door there somewhere. He just - has to find it.

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[videointhenoise]

They take their hand and stand up. "That...well, what are we going to do?'

[getfeldsparred]

“First thing I’m gonna do is talk to your dad,” they tell them. “What you’re gonna do is either go talk to Slate about making sure we find out where the power is being generated for the dream, or spend some time with Hal. Or both. You need some time to just be a hatchling for a while, and that’s what we’re gonna do.”

[videointhenoise]

Lapis just stares at Feldspar and crumbles a little.

Just be a Hatchling.

They don't know if they remember how to be that way.

[getfeldsparred]

They can see the despair in Lapis’ eyes and smile encouragingly. “I’ve made up your mind for you - go spend some time with Hal. Show them the signs and see if you can’t get some of those deciphering skills going.”

There’s nothing at stake there. Hal will help Lapis, they just know it. “Best part about this plan? There’s no pressure to get it right. I mean, when was the last time you spent any real time with your buddy, huh?”

[videointhenoise]

Being told what to do, like they're a child again, heals something immediately in them that has felt like a gaping wound for so long. "Okay," they say with a nod and then give Feldspar a tight hug. "Do you want me to walk you back?"

[getfeldsparred]

Feldspar hugs them back, holding onto to them for as long as Lapis needs. “I’m okay. The walk back’s not too back - the others did a pretty good job making their path.”

[videointhenoise]

Lapis gives them a quick kiss on their cheek and then leaves them there, trusting that they can make their way back and giving them the privacy that they know they need.

Lapis needs time to think, too.

[getfeldsparred]

There is a lot to process through, and the walk gives them more than adequate time to do it. This trip has really set their priorities straight, and though their muscles are aching by the time they take the wooden path up to the room they share with Kent, their mind is humming.

“Kent? Kent, are you around?”

[videointhenoise]

Kent's in the room, tidying a bit, though there's a fishing pole leaned against the side of the door. "I'm here," he says, using his hands to feel around the bed to make sure it's done.

[getfeldsparred]

They push the door shut behind them and smile brightly when they see Kent puttering around the space. They cross the room to him and wrap their arms around his waist, pressing their face into his back with an exhale.

“You smell like a campfire.”

[videointhenoise]

Kent chuckles, his hand on theirs. "What's all this about? What happened?" he wonders, turning around to face them so he can kiss their face properly.

[getfeldsparred]

Feldspar gives Kent enough slack to turn about, but meets the sight of his face by taking his cheeks between their hands and kissing them firmly. “I love you.”

They smile and drop their hands to hold him around the waist. “I love you more than I love the stars, Kent.”

[videointhenoise]

He smiles, a little caught off guard, but far too much in love to take it for anything more than what it is - a declaration of love.

"What's this about?" he wonders, dopey and grinning.

[getfeldsparred]

“I spent the morning with our hatchling,” they tell him, chin resting on his chest. “They’re in love, Kent. They’re in love with an alien, a big antlered alien who only exists in a simulation.”

[videointhenoise]

There's a lot to process in that simple sentence. Kent doesn't make many facial expressions and so the emotions he's feeling only result in a blank expression for a few seconds. He starts to talk, stops, and then nods.

"Start from the beginning?"

[getfeldsparred]

“Come sit with me.”

They take Kent’s hand and bring him to the bed. “Lapis took me to finally see the inside of that big structure they were being so cagey about. There’s a whole separate world beneath our feet.”

Fortunately Feldspar’s natural inclination for storytelling helps paint the picture of everything Lapis had shared with them that morning. They talk about the aliens and the whole reason they ended up in the star system, the destruction of their home in the pursuit of something called the Eye of the Universe. They explain how they were fearful of what they found and isolated themselves, and then punished one of them who had tried to release the Eye’s signal.

And then Feldspar talks about the simulation and the prisoner. “They died over and over again - I think Lapis was terrified to see them again and lose them forever.”

[videointhenoise]

Kent sits with them and takes their hand in his, listening to the story with his head tilted. More strangeness, more oddness, more weird mysteries. But the important part of all of this is their Hatchling. Their Lapis, who had decided to follow in their parents' footsteps and fall in love with someone impossible.

"So what happened?"

[getfeldsparred]

“I coached them through it. They’re still stuck in that loop in a lot of ways, not able to see the forest for the trees. But they’re able to talk, the two of them, and I think Lapis was able to tell them this time about how we’d come to live on their ship and that they’re not a prisoner any longer. So that’s where we ended it - they didn’t lose them, and things are kind of up in the air.”

[videointhenoise]

Kent squeezes their hand and then chuckles, shaking his head. "Welcome back, Felds," he says softly. "To uh...parenthood."

Truthfully, Kent's been waiting for this moment for a while. For Lapis to let down their walls, for Feldspar to take those steps. And this is a damn weird way of doing it, but - it happened. And Kent couldn't be happier.

[getfeldsparred]

Feldspar exhales low and exaggeratedly. “It was in there, I just had to find it again.”

A simple way of summarizing all of those insecurities they felt about their return and being whoever it was they are now that they’re some washed up astronaut. But they’re still Feldspar - they’re still Kent’s spouse, Lapis’ Mapa, friend of Gossan, Slate, Hornfels and Esker, little troublemaking hatchling raised by Gneiss and Tektite.

“There’s a lot of good still to be had here at the end of the universe. I think maybe I just had to find my place in it again, y’know?”

[videointhenoise]

"I know," he says softly. "And I think you're doing it. And I'm goddamn proud of you for it."

He brings them in for a quick kiss.

[getfeldsparred]

The kiss also reminds Feldspar of those not-so-distance feelings they’d carried back with them from their visit to Lapis’ prisoner. They smile and pounce on Kent, pushing him back by the shoulders onto the bed.

[videointhenoise]

Kent lets out a soft laugh, falling back on the bed. "Did you lock the door?" he mutters, wrapping his arms around them. He's not sure what's gotten into them, but he isn't going to waste this moment.

[getfeldsparred]

“Door doesn’t lock,” Feldspar reminds them, “but I can drag a chair to it while you take off your clothes.”

They grin a little more lecherously and finds the hem of his shirt to slip their fingers up underneath it.

[videointhenoise]

He laughs. "You dirty old man," he teases, but he is eager to have them back like this. He is eager to touch them and kiss them, and so he raises his arms to slide out of his shirt.