"I know what I am," he says firmly, though Jon's right.

"But it doesn't mean I always - want to agree with others on how to go about it."

He doesn't particularly enjoy the feeling of fighting it as often as he does. But that's the price he pays. His own sacrifice. Burning away parts of himself to have a semblance of life for a while longer. It isn't sustainable, but it's his actual goddamn choice.